I’m done feeling like a burden. Feeling like I am less of a fantastic human being because of a chemical imbalance in my brain. And if you can’t handle my imperfect life, if you can’t handle that I have a mental illness, you can walk away. You can get out of my life.
I hope you know that I would go through hell and back for you… That when I cling to you it’s because I don’t want to lose you because everyone I’ve ever loved has left.
You’ll begin to understand that anxiety cannot be healed. You’ll begin to understand that anxiety is not like a broken leg, or a sprained wrist. And you’ll begin to understand that anxiety is a chemical imbalance, not a cry for attention.
I need you to love my anxiety and understand that I am not being emotional for no reason. My anxiety likes to trick me into worrying about many problems, mainly the illogical ones.
You are loving someone who will kiss your demons away, because they have spent their whole lives fighting their own ones.
I know how you feel when we are about to enter a room. I can sense the dread as it overcomes you. I can see the way your footsteps want to cease and forcefully drag along.
Know that this illness does not make them weak. Know that it doesn’t make them crazy or unstable. Please just love them for who they are, and that includes the bad parts too. Just love them as they are.
Seeing their face go from crumpled to comforted will make you see that it’s not about the struggle or the tragedy. It’s about the healing. And you were a part of that. You were a big part of that.
If you are strong enough, and if you are brave enough, you will not see this illness as a flaw, or something to try to erase. You will see it as another reason to love and to adore her. You will see it as something she has, but not something that she is.
Not only are they looking for a good boyfriend or girlfriend, but they are looking for someone who will understand their mental illness. They can’t date someone who is ignorant to their problem, and they need someone who can give them empathy and support.