You find yourself hollowed out, the appetizer before the main course. People don’t come back for you.
She smile texts you.
Should I drink something before going out to loosen up? What if I drink too much and then I’m just drunk?
People ask you about goals and plans for the future and you develop an ulcer on the spot.
10:07PM: Have a good buzz going and decide it’s time to go get some pussy. Either do a solo mission or go out with people in the hostel who aren’t lame.
It was Orientation Week at my university.
It seems clear to me now, though, that the kind of hookup culture we see in movies and TV and in the apps marketed to us for increasingly unemotional sex, that this really isn’t what people want.
Frankly, I wanted to see what the big deal was about sex. I didn’t want to go into my 27th year with the stigma of being a sexually inexperienced woman.
You will evoke no negative, complicated feelings in them. They will never need to “get away” from you. You will never frustrate them or stress them out.
You go out together to a party or bar, ostensibly to wingman for each other, but just end up going home together.