Just because he says he isn’t ready for a serious relationship, doesn’t mean he actually feels that way.
Loss happens moment by moment in all corners of the world through different events and incarnations.
Boys are fragile. And you aren’t any different.
Your almost-relationship can be the thing that gives you growth, teaches you a lesson about love or life or something in between. It’s not a badge of shame or a reason to feel embarrassed. Remember that every time you have the courage to put your heart on the line, and offer it to someone, you are brave. Don’t stop being brave.
This is where I find myself. Thrust into singledom since the unexpected end of my marriage, nearly a year ago. Regardless of my internal reservations, I have started to traverse the complex and confounding world of dating after heartbreak.
As we sat across from one another on our worn-out leather couch, looking at each other straight in the eyes, from that moment on, I knew we no longer knew one another.
What hurt the most was your hesitation to even give us a chance.
Everyone says it never ends well, someone always ends up with a broken heart. You let it happen anyway, you go in with an open heart and you think to yourself “this isn’t so bad, I can do this.”
We’re genetically biased to justify things in our head. Our minds want to believe that there’s always a reason it was someone else’s fault something went wrong, when in reality we’ve probably screwed up more than one situation and we just don’t – or refuse to – see it.
My self-esteem hit an all-time low. We had a good thing going, and I royally screwed it up.