You’ll be continuously pushed away in spite of all your efforts to make things better.
“We left at a really awkward angry place and I really just wish I could tell him I’m sorry. I’m sorry for all of it. Truly. And I’ll likely always be sorry.”
You can’t be a strong, independent, and a healthy woman without being broken at least a few times.
I hadn’t thought about you for a while. Sure, fleeting memories, but it wasn’t until I was sure we were 15 feet apart that my heart started to panic.
The only way out of the storm was to go through it and that’s exactly what I did.
“What happened to us? You are not the man who loved me harder than anyone has ever loved me. You are not the man I loved until my heart was on fire. You are not him anymore, where did he go?”
I pray for our growth, and I pray that we become the very person we were meant to be.
It’s been almost a year since I’ve seen you. Here I am, looking for answers, looking to fill a void that I don’t think you know you’re responsible for.
Perhaps it wasn’t that you cared so much about them, but rather that you didn’t care enough about you, and you couldn’t recognize when it was time to leave.
What I am is just an average girl that would have given you the world.