You begin to want more. You knew you would have to wait for him to come around, but months have passed and everything is still superficial; something is just missing.
You’re allowed to be cautious. But don’t overdo it.
If you’re blaming past relationships for your emotional baggage, don’t, because the time spent on a failed relationship was not time wasted.
“You deserve so much better,” they said, “and he’s really not worth it.” To which my invariable response was, “But I still love him.”
Face it. Your heart is going to hurt. Like hell. I swear it’s going to be worse than hell. There’s no other way around it. That’s the only way through.
Maybe, deep down he knows. But, he thinks you’re worth fighting for. When you finally leave, it will ruin him. You did this.
You’re still trying to pinpoint what went wrong. What did go wrong? Your brakes weren’t faulty and everything was working fine.
Decide to tell him how you feel instead of keeping it a secret like you have been all along. Assume he feels the same. Allow yourself to hope.
But you forgot me.
At first, you will try to rekindle the dying embers, piece the relationship back together, and save it from going completely downhill. You will convince yourself that what you have with them is worth fighting and staying for.