You continue to take every circumstance (and every emotion paired with it) and use them as bricks for that mental wall you’ve built yourself without realizing it. But the problem isn’t that wall. It’s your mindset that seems to be continuing to build that wall taller and taller.
You can give yourself 24 hours to feel sorry for yourself, but that’s it because while your life might feel like it’s falling apart the rest of the world is still moving.
I’m really sorry if you had a bad experience once or twice, but if you have a string of shitty relationships with ‘assholes’, maybe the problem is not the entire population of men. Perhaps you should consider that maybe the problem is you.
Everybody is dealing with something. Your struggles may be different than your friends, but that doesn’t change the fact that nobody’s life is perfect. Nobody’s.