I lost a friend today. Those five words in particular aren’t poignant by any means, I’ve lost count of those I’ve lost over the years, but this isn’t my first rodeo. I did not write this for me though. This has nothing to do with me or how I feel, because one less boy walks this earth today, and it was his choice.
If you ask me, it’s better to risk being hurt than to feel nothing at all.
We continued our relationship for a while, but somewhere along the way, something about my experience of being in love with her changed.
The proverb “What soap is for the body, tears are for the soul.” is one that I live by. Crying helps to clean your soul, and release any pent up emotion that can otherwise be really unhealthy when kept harbored.
In essence, we aim to shove an outpour of seemingly inexplicable emotions into a few, carefully arranged words, much like over-packing for a weekend vacation. We aim to express ourselves without compromising the complexity of the human spirit or the gravity of a situation.
All we are and all we will be is this — a beautiful mess of effort and resilience. We must keep moving and poking at life’s uncertainties. Do not hide.
A long time ago I read something that said our hearts seek out those who need it most. I believed it for a long and used it as an explanation for why I was always falling for broken people with addictions or self-neglect or egocentric attitudes.
Feel your feeling but don’t let your feeling control your reaction
I do not text you to keep tabs on you – I want the meat, the depth, the every detail of your day.