Broken, alone, defeated. I was so close to giving up. Wasted away to nothing but a disorder and stubbornness. Rock bottom lead to rock bottom, repeat times ten.
When you don’t get sufficient sleep in the night, the production of hormones/leptin which suppress appetite decreases, which will make your body easy to gain weight.
I knew my body was starting to recover when I felt this new yearning to train my body with strength and flexibility, health and nourishment, so that I could do miraculous and extraordinary things with it.
I ignored the fact that my entire life was revolving around food, or rather, the lack thereof.
You joke about food to try and take away the power it has over you.
I was scared that someone would know my “secret” and would force me to go to therapy where they would force me to gain weight.
In order to make a positive change, you need to stop feeling guilty for overdoing it in the past and focus on being mindful in the future.
Our relationship with food can have a huge bearing on how we enjoy and process it, as well as our body image and confidence.
“I ate five Maine lobsters, then puked all over the lawn.”
Having an eating disorder during the first week of college isn’t a glamorized story told online about a beautiful girl who got so stressed with her workload, peer expectations and college life that she starves herself to feel something.