I’m happy, I’m positive, I’m optimistic, and I’m depressed.
Soak in your own denial about what you’re doing. Justify it rather than just shrugging it off. You had a hard week, you just don’t feel like going out, you’ve earned this.
Known for her spoken word performances and deeply personal writing style, “Green Eyes” is Ari Eastman’s second collection of poetry. In this assortment of love letters to the past, hopes for the future, and raw confessions about the present, Eastman makes no apologies for who she has become and how she got there.
I want to enjoy myself. I want to go a party, I want to laugh and smile and tell jokes with my friends. I want to kiss people and love people, and lose myself in someones eyes. I want to have dinner with my family and tell stories about my day. But I can’t face them.
1. We are not antisocial.
Growing up, I would hear the same line constantly: “Our family had a history of mental illness and depression, and that’s why this or that happened.”
Have you ever read the symptoms of depression? It’s something I don’t think many people like to do, even when they have a friend or loved one struggling with depression. I, however, read about the symptoms quite often.
The app tracked behaviors linked to depression, time spent in certain locations, and how often the participant engaged with their phone.
I am not successful. But I know I can be. I am good at so many things but not great at anything. I wish there was a cure for me – I wish all the positive thinking in the world could fix me but it can’t.
Many people do not understand the meaning of the word “depression.” It is often used as adjective, i.e. “I was so depressed after watching that movie.” It is not the same as living in a state of pure depression.