I want to believe that I have acquired the skills to ward off another depression. I won; I cannot and will not let it get the best of me.
I like to write at least one thing a month to push myself as an internet writer.
But this time, the depression was worse than I could have ever imagined and I couldn’t handle it. I got my dad’s 45 caliber gun and shot myself in the stomach.
People see the happiness, creativity, and ambition — but not the darkness that drives it.
Friendship is being there when it might not be easy and it probably won’t benefit you. Love goes a long way.
If Robin Williams deserves to be lauded for his merits, why shouldn’t he be blamed for his faults?
When someone commits suicide, the person is deemed crazy and selfish. Yet there is often a lack of perspective on what could lead a person to feel so utterly hopeless and alone that they would take their own lives.
I’m not going to sit here and say that it should be super easy to talk about these things, because it’s not. They are dark and scary issues. However, it breaks my heart to know that someone famous needs to die in order for mental illnesses to be openly talked about.
And I say all these bad things he was doing with the understanding that he was alternately, in the same time frame, telling me he loved us, wanted to be there for me, wanted to make it work.
Not everyone understands, and that’s what makes it so difficult. Depression is not something many people recognize as a disease. For many, it is not the same as cancer or diabetes, but I assure you, it is.