Thought Catalog

Dad

I hope he has a family and a daughter of his own one day. I hope he gets that opportunity I didn’t have to teach his daughter all those important lessons I didn’t get to teach mine.

I don’t feel normal and I don’t feel like I’ve cried like other people have, what’s wrong with me? Did he really prepare me that well that I am maybe okay with him not being here or am I just completely avoiding the whole subject and choosing not to feel these emotions, I’m frightened for when it will actually hit me or will it ever?