When she breaks – she will keep it from you because she has learned that silence is her shield. She clings to her vulnerability behind a mask that annoys you in its dullness.
In a world of roughly seven billion people, losing this one won’t ruin you.
She was the one thing in your life that actually made you feel like you had a purpose and you ruined it.
Through the destruction, I found this clarity. This love and respect for the person I am.
As time went by, I realized that life without him wasn’t as impossible as I thought. I realized that even if I could never stop loving him, there is life after heartbreak.
I have to learn how to be okay with endings, how to smile as a chapter of my life closes, and how to let people go.
But, I’m no longer broken. Baby, I’m whole.
…Except I don’t know how to be whole.
People will come into your life and teach you lessons then leave when they are fulfilled.
Logically, you know to let him go. You know wanting someone who caused so much pain isn’t rational.
Thanks to you, I went on another first date and experienced another first kiss.