So how do you, as a driven man, know what sort of things to look for in a partner?
2. You try to fit the homonormative gay ideal.
My path isn’t yours. I can’t tell you what you should have learned in your 20s, because I’m still learning. I can’t tell you what I wished I knew in college, because we didn’t have the same journey, and we won’t. We can’t.
Everyone wants to be happier, but no one thinks to ask how. We assume we know what we need to be doing. After all we’ve seen the movies.
Think of any current goal you have — what you are doing, or not doing right this very second is typically for a reason.
Here you are, having just quit your job to pursue full-time the thing you love most to do: writing.
Look at what you want to perpetuate to other people, when you yourself can’t find the words. What strikes you most is who you are.
When the clock hits 12 A.M. and it’s officially January 1st, you’re not miraculously going to be in a different position than you are right now.
You spot a gut-wrenching figure. A dark silhouette standing across the way, gazing in your direction. It’s Fate.
Is it because we were naïve adolescents? Or were we actually full of the hope and confidence necessary to accomplish our visions, before being drained of that conviction over the years?