Find someone who understands your struggles. Someone who won’t judge you when your body shakes and your mind won’t shut up.
The night gives me too much time to spend inside my head — which is not a pleasant place to be.
I need for anxiety not to control my entire life. I need for myself to be stronger.
Watch a ridiculous but perfect T.V. show like Gossip Girl or One Tree Hill. Catch yourself reciting the lines. Wish the show had never ended.
My anxiety makes me hide in my own house whenever I hear a knock at the door.
Stay single until you find someone who makes your favorite dinner and puts on your favorite movie when you’re anxious.
Sometimes you feel annoying because you keep asking if they’re mad at you, if they’re bored of you. You need constant reassurance that they still love you, that they still want you around. You’re terrified of becoming a burden to them.
Someone else might blush and laugh off an awkward moment, but I will think about it for days. Weeks. Years.
I’m always living in the unknown. Always on edge just waiting for the floor to collapse under me. Always just waiting for the people I love to go away as soon as I feel stable. Always waiting for my happiness to disappear as soon as I learn how to smile again.
I shut down. I can’t think. I forget where I’m going or what I’m doing. I just fall asleep.