Picture yourself standing in front of a mirror. Next, imagine you don’t recognize your reflection.
The worst part of rape isn’t about that violent force that happened, but the emotional roller coaster that comes after. It’s about losing your confidence. Watching your self-esteem plummet. It’s about trying to convince yourself that you’re not a bad fruit that nobody will buy.
Do you relate to this?
The feeling of actually sitting still and feeling at ease is as foreign to you as the concept of understanding the stock market.
You walk down a long narrow sidewalk crowded with faceless people who have no direction and no purpose except to get somewhere faster than you
Sometimes being alone can be the best thing for me.
When you tell someone to relax, you aren’t being helpful. You’re just robbing them of validity. You’re telling them, “This thing you have isn’t real. Just stop it.” You’re denying their experience, their struggle.
1 out of 5 people experience a mental illness. I am sure you have seen this statistic a lot this month.
Other people don’t like it when we are genuinely not okay. It makes them uncomfortable. And we live in a world where it has become completely unacceptable to make other people uncomfortable.
When anxiety comes back, I feel her in the morning. I feel heavier when I wake up. She feels heavy in my mind. I try to ignore her so she will leave. So she knows that she is unwanted here. But it isn’t long before she has tied herself up with me again.