If it was the right relationship you wouldn’t have to wonder if it is. But you want it to be something. You want him to care as much as you do.
I just can’t understand how something without a label, how a thing that was never a thing, could seep into my veins; how it could make me feel so much, yet never good enough.
I’m really sorry if you had a bad experience once or twice, but if you have a string of shitty relationships with ‘assholes’, maybe the problem is not the entire population of men. Perhaps you should consider that maybe the problem is you.
“I want a relationship that I definitely want to be in, if it’s an almost, it’s an uncertainty, it’s a maybe. In my opinion, that’s not a relationship worth starting.”
When you drink red wine you know it stains your lips, and your bed sheets when excitement disables you.
But one day doesn’t change waking up in a bed too big for one.
You think everyone is like your ex. You think everyone is going to treat you the way your ex treated you or they will eventually turn out to be the same person. This mentality subconsciously stops you from giving someone a fair chance because in the back of your mind, you think that it’s only a matter of time before they break your heart.
You consider reaching out to him, and asking him how he’s been, and maybe if he’d like to get together. But you know better than that. You know how these things go.
It’s hard to concentrate on work when you keep popping into my head.
It is a struggle, yes, but at some point, that struggle and that journey have an end that makes the pain feel like a sweet blessing in disguise.