I have never relied on any substance to cause me to feel like anyone other than myself. I have however, watched a beautiful person wither away in their addiction.
A lot of these songs are hitting on one theme: women are ostensibly offered tons of choices but none they desire.
“Recovery means freedom. Freedom to be who I am, to be who I want to be. Freedom to do what I want to do, and the freedom to continue writing the rest of my story. Freedom to make my dreams come true and to dream again.”
If you are like me and love someone with an addiction, just let them know you are there for them.
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Gravestoned is a collection of non-fiction short stories about death and drugs. Kelly shares personal tales of her brother’s drug addiction, his subsequent death, and her own habits growing up.
Because the non-sexual part of the relationship was boring as hell. She had low self confidence and was “just happy to be with someone.”
addicts never feel quite right in their own bodies. They struggle with feeling like two people. They feel feelings very deeply. They care a lot about what others think of them. They’re codependent. The drugs are a SYMPTOM of the disease of addiction, and for a while, help become a temporary escape from the disease. The drugs are NEVER the cause. It doesn’t work like that.
Cancel the date you’re supposed to have a few days from now. Make up an excuse (you’re good at it). Cancel all dates so you never have to start. Joke about being alone forever and realize it’s your own doing.
See, the talk always seems to be about you. The focus is always on you. How are you doing? How are you feeling? Well, I have myself to ask how I am doing, how I’m feeling.