No one can define if what you did wrong was a mistake. You have to define your mistakes on your own. See if they really were wrong or if you think so based on others’ judgement.
Always think highly of yourself – for success is about selling ‘yourself’ in the marketplace. The world is an ever evolving industry; so make sure that you market yourself intelligently.
But this is what’s wrong with this universe: you meet someone who is willing to solve the complicated puzzle that you are, but you stand there – unwilling.
You’re ok with not being ok. You aren’t ashamed anymore about your anxieties and about your feelings. You talk to someone when you are feeling really down, and know what you need to do to get back up on your feet again.
Sweatpants serving as acceptable attire for any occasion. As opposed to after college, when donning sweatpants for seven days straight is about as far from acceptable as you can get. Passing stretchy jeans off at work might be the closest you can get to those glory days, but it does make you appreciate weekends that much more.
She won’t give up so easily. She doesn’t associate perfection with the ability to be loved, which means she’s also capable of being genuinely intimate.
How to cut tomatoes.
Sometimes, no matter how big the love is, and how confident the bond is between you two, they will end up hurting you. No matter what you do. And it’s not anyone’s fault. It’s not your fault for loving so hard. It’s not their fault for having a change of heart. It’s just life.
Healing can only begin when you catch yourself in the middle of your self-loathing stream of thoughts and become aware of their origin. It seems impossible to look at them objectively once you are already drowning in them, but it can happen.
Maybe it’s too much for me to ask. Maybe my expectations are too high. And maybe I should settle, to find a guy sooner, and settle down faster. But I’m not going to do that. I will wait however long it takes. I know I deserve better. And you do too.