Richard Grayson

Richard Grayson, a retired lawyer and college professor, is the author of With Hitler in New York (1979), I Brake for ...

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The music was strange and hypnotic, and as I listened, I looked around at Conrad, Anne, Preston, Lucille, Dan, Jane, Sandy Walker and his ever-present dog, Michael, Ellen and Elaine, and I thought: These people are all so talented and beautiful, I could be in love with all of them.

Walking around the Village afterwards – God, this time of year everyone looks so beautiful there – I spoke with Josh about his future. Nothing makes him happy. Women love him, yet after a few weeks he feels nothing but boredom and contempt for them.

Avis is depressed that she can’t “plan a future” with Simon, who admitted he feels “smothered” and he wants her to pull back. Avis feels an old pattern in re-emerging: “Nobody will give me a commitment.” I didn’t know what she meant. “Marriage?” I asked. “I don’t know what marriage is,” she replied.

Taking off my clothes, I sat down as Charles and his assistant fiddled with a big klieg light softened by a white umbrella. And then I posed, moving my body this way and that way as Charles directed. After the first ten minutes, I lost most of my self-consciousness about being naked.

I decided to take a ride out to the beach at Fort Lauderdale. There was a long wait at a drawbridge, and four girls in a nearby car rolled down their windows. I thought they wanted to ask directions, but they were just waving and smiling. On Las Olas Boulevard a guy in the car next to mine began flirting with me.

Gary and I went to one of those places that buy old coins and gold and silver jewelry, but the line there was too long. With 20% inflation, people are panicking and selling off rings, coin collections, bracelets and even silverware. The 1980s seem to be a time of panic, war hysteria, and senseless violence.

Avis and I were talking about Simon and Josh’s not speaking to each other. I wondered aloud why people who care about each other should cause each other such pain. “It’s usually people who care about you who cause you pain,” Justin put in – and I felt he was talking about him and me, not Simon and Josh.

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