Stop thinking that if you were to spend more time with him, he’d want you. If only you could show him somehow what he means to you, he will want to be with you.
You aren’t meant to be kept waiting. You were born to explore, to discover yourself and this beautiful world around you.
Some will tell you it’s for the best, others will say he doesn’t deserve you. Only you know how lost you are. Only you can see that this affects only you and no one else. It’s not despondency, believe me.