Amy: Hmm. Oh, well that’s interesting. I just saw a flash of a face. So. Um. Um. I couldn’t tell if it was male or female — had a turtleneck on? White. Turtleneck. Dishwater blonde hair, down to the shoulders. Really fine, thin. If it wasn’t a man, it was a more masculine, um, woman? Meaning — no makeup. Um. Masculine energy.
I begin typing away, trying to look up people who I think might fit this description. I find someone but, as this is very sensitive territory to breach, I cannot name any names in this article.
Me: Okay… might have found someone who matches but, um, we’ll come back to that. Um. And so… the, the flash. Was that sort of a train of thought kind of thing, or…
Amy: She’s just letting me feel that I shouldn’t take things so seriously. Be more childlike. In the essence of what I’m feeling of her… then I had a flash of that face, and then in the same motion she let me feel she’s being very cutesy about… like, turning the tables on you. “Well, I have a question for you! Why do you adults take things so seriously?” So just, like she just keeps doing it over and over. I think she’s doing it for me. To lighten up.
Me: Uh, okay, I guess we’ll get a little bit more… serious.
Amy: She wants you to lighten up too. She just said it. You need to lighten up too. She’s telling me you gotta come down to her level… we gotta get… childlike.
Me: I guess it’s just hard knowing, you know… what it is that we’re going to be asking. The kind of stuff we’re eventually going to be talking about.
Amy: But she’s saying it already happened. It’s already happened. It’s okay. So if you understand that… that doesn’t bring her… doesn’t make her sad. Serious adults make her sad.
I explain how we’re trying to be gentle going into this because it has, in the past, made subjects sad to go into their death. Specifically Ron Goldman comes to mind.
