For those of you who are unaware, Patsy Ramsey is JonBenet’s mother. She passed away due to ovarian cancer in 2006.
Me: And so she is kind of… in the way? Kind of…
Amy pauses, considers this. Then laughs.
Amy: She’s very strong. Um, I’m not — I’m not sure if she’s trying to be in the way, or if actually she wants to… to speak and come forward… and I’d be willing to listen, to that. But. To do both at the same time? I don’t want to do both at the same time.
A low, strange electronic hum comes through my speakers.
Me: No, you shouldn’t.
Amy tucks a strand of hair behind her ear, closes her eyes, seems to listen.
Amy: Okay. We’re ready.
Me: Okay. So who are we gonna start with?
Amy: JonBenet.
Me: Start with JonBenet… okay. Um. So, first I, I just want to say thank you… for talking to us… because I know this is probably kind of hard. And weird. And… you know, we really appreciate it because a lot of people wanted to hear from you. So just to start… with a thank you.
My cell phone begins to suddenly ring, the end credits of “American Horror Story: Coven” echoing in the room. Shit. I try to silence it as fast as I can. Amy moves on, unfazed.
Amy: She kind of… giggled. At that. It was, almost like a, “Whoops!” And she… I feel her saying “Thank you.” Um. And that she’s happy to be talking.
Me: Okay. I guess what, um, a lot of people would want to know just up front is, um… you know… just where she is. Spiritually. Right now, if she’s okay. If she’s happy.
This was what had been weighing on me most heavily. The fact that this little girl — in all truth, not that much younger than me — still played on the minds of the public so much. Everyone still worries about her, hopes she’s okay, she’s found some measure of peace. My greatest fear in doing this session was to find out that she was, in death, unhappy.
Amy responds immediately.
