4. My mother loved to beat the shit out of people, mostly me.
I am pretty certain my mother killed my grandmother. The question I have was it on purpose or an accident. Grandma had dementia and my narcissistic mother took her in for the glory and sympathy a caregiver gets and of course, access to her bank account. Within 12 hours of my Gramma’s death, my mother had her dogs put down, within 24, had paid off her house, booked a 10-day cruise, and within 36 hours had bought a gigantic new SUV. I was the first person there. I saw everything. Could I prove any of it? Nope, just know that my mother loved to beat the shit out of people, mostly me. If she would admit it was an accident, she might be functioning better than she is. Oh, in the hospital she kept saying that her dog couldn’t testify.
5. I would have never thought of my father as a murderer. He was the best dad a child could have (it seemed).
“My dad shot my mom and himself when I was outside in the car. Five times with a rifle to her face, once with a handgun to himself.
I had a whistling in my ears I remember so vividly. It was so silent it was deafening, if that makes sense. It was just so…silent with this high-pitched whistle. I remember covering my ears and screaming to block it out. It would come and go. I sat in that car for what seemed like decades. It was really about two to three hours.
Whenever I get that whistle in my ears, I immediately feel like something is bad happening to my kids or wife. There isn’t much else that makes me think of it.
I was six.
I would have never thought of my father as a murderer. He was the best dad a child could have (it seemed). I remember two instances of him trying to hurt my mother, and at the time it was…normal? But now I realize something was wrong.
I know he killed out of so-called love and jealousy, and sorry to get off-topic, but I wish I had parents. Writing this makes me sad.”
6. I knew my cousin would eventually kill somebody.
“I knew my cousin would eventually kill somebody, he started running with the Latin Kings when he was a kid and was always into some illegal shit. He ended up killing a cop when he was pulled over with a pound of meth, shot him 4 times killing him on the spot, they caught up to him 8 hours later and shot him 8 times and is now doing life in Oak Park prison.”