Lauren Jarvis-Gibson

Turn your life into something that you can be proud of. Turn yourself into someone that you can be proud of. Focus on the light that you bring to your own life. Focus on what makes your heart beat faster. On what makes your smile beam brighter. 

He asks you more questions about yourself and your family than about previous relationships. 

Maybe it isn’t the timing that breaks people apart. Maybe it isn’t the challenges or the distance. Maybe we were only meant to love them for a certain amount of time. Maybe we were made to give our hearts to more people, instead of just one.

In the Air Force you may meet fellow Airmen that will become pals for life. The bonds formed between Airmen are often unbreakable. Some Airmen have even found future spouses within the service.

I forget what it feels like to fall asleep next to someone who adores me just as I adore them. I forget what it feels like to feel so  confident in someone else. To be so confident in love. To be so confident and to be so convinced that love can conquer all.

I’m slowly learning to forgive myself for being a person. For failing. For making mistakes. For failing other people and myself. I’m slowly learning to forgive myself breaking. For being overly emotional and sensitive. I’m slowly learning to forgive myself for hurting and healing and starting all over again. 

I would rather be alone. Because being alone is better than being treated like trash. Being alone is better than being let down. Being alone is better than being with someone who talks and flirts and kisses other girls when you’re in the exact same room. And being alone is 100% better, than being with you.

So sorry to disapoint you, but I’m keeping my standards high. And that doesn’t make me a bitch. That doesn’t make me snobby. That makes me brave and courageous. Because I’d rather be single for a long time, than get mistreated by people who don’t give a crap about me. I’d rather love myself, than to be half loved by some asshole who only wants to get in my pants.