Anxiety is not just you being lazy or having a poor work ethic. It’s feeling like a fire is burning in your heart as soon as people ask you what your five year plan is. It’s feeling like a failure. All the time.
Would you tell someone with a broken leg, to stop overreacting and to ‘just keep walking’? Would you tell someone with cancer to ‘just smile’ and to ‘let it go’? Would you tell someone with MS or with chronic pain to ‘just relax and stop being so dramatic’? I don’t think so.
Please do not let society tell you who you are. Please do not let society mold your mind into thinking that you need to change yourself. Please do not let that boy or that girl tell you that you are not enough, just as you are right now.
When you date a girl who knows how precious she is, please do not stomp on her heart. She trusts you. She hears your words and believes them. She feels your kisses, and believes in the power of your lips. She feels herself falling and trusts that you won’t drop her. Please don’t drop her.
You weren’t supposed to be the one to leave.
To be the one I called my own
when you already knew I wasn’t your destination.
To be the one I called my home
when you already knew I was only a vacation.
It doesn’t matter if they are gone now. It just matters how they made you feel, and how they made you see yourself. It doesn’t matter if you never see them again. It just matters what they left inside of your soul.
If you are strong enough, and if you are brave enough, you will not see this illness as a flaw, or something to try to erase. You will see it as another reason to love and to adore her. You will see it as something she has, but not something that she is.
You are loud, and you are persistent. You know how to get under my skin, and you know how to give me goosebumps on every inch of my body. But, I will never let you take full control. I will never let you gain my whole heart.
Take that leap. And if you fall, try to fly. Don’t ever stop. Don’t ever stop believing that you are great. Don’t ever stop believing that one day, someday, you will get to where you need to be.
Do not let a boy become the centerpiece of your life. Do not let a boy become more important than you are to yourself. And do not let a boy take your whole heart, while he gives you nothing in return.