Looking back on my life, my friends have been a consistent well of unconditional love for years.
We all go a little crazy when it comes to love and like and everything in between; love is a complicated emotion that we can’t always glide our way through with smirks and one liners.
I mean if I’m honest, I never loved someone as much as I loved you.
I’ve finally started to recognize the value of people who stay, and recognize that I deserve more than just a pop in every now and then.
When you’re the girl who loves more, you make promises for the both of you. You promise you’ll stick around through the hard times. You promise yourself that if you just try a little harder, they will recognize the wonderful things in you.
Something in me still thinks there might be magic between me and you, and that’s enough for me to send five letters, one message, this one night.
I’m waiting for someone who looks at me the way they look at something they find intriguing, interesting, and wonderful. I want someone to go the extra mile, not for attention, but simply because I want a love that calls for something like that. A relationship that consists of two people excited about life and excited about each other.
Perhaps out of desperation,
because this hurts and
all I want it to do
is anything but hurt.
You deserve to heal and keep living your life, because you will do some pretty amazing things with it. Yet for a little while, it’s okay to just examine the wreckage.
Take time to let your heart get used to a life without someone living in it, and let it become something beautiful all on its own.