28 Men And Women Who Killed Someone Else Confess To How It Happened And The Weight They Now Carry

26. Standing Up To The Bully

When I was young I used to get bullied a lot, I was in the 9th grade and I had this one person, a senior, that would harass me (and sometimes hit me) constantly. I always tried to just ignore it but I had to walk outside to get to one of my classes and he knew about it. Not a lot of people were around us. We were on the sidewalk, walking down a hill towards the AG Barn. He pushed me and I fell down the hill a little but caught myself, I got angry. Angrier than I normally get. I got so angry that for the first time, I pushed him back. Instead of falling to the side (or not falling at all) like I thought he would, he fell right off the sidewalk, onto the road (for student parking and buses) and fell in front of a bus. There were a few people watching and I called the police afterwards. I know he was bullying me… but I have nightmares about what I did still. Because of what the people who saw said (and the camera outside the building) luckily I never suffered any consequences. But I almost wish I had.

YesIHavwPTSD

27. Death On The Tracks

I am a locomotive engineer (I drive trains).

Thirteen time19-year 19 year career (so far). Someone ended up in front of my train that didn’t surrvive.

Suicide, poor judgment or no sense of situational awareness combined with a vehicle that takes a mile or more to stop = death about 50% of the time in my experience.

The nightmares of various incidents awaken me regularly. Pretty sure that I suffer PTSD, but, if I do something about it, I will lose my job (medically disqualified). I cannot let that happen at the moment as financial ruin would result.

Please, stay out of the path of my freight train.

Alan-anumber1

28. Mercy Nurse

People say euthanizing is illegal for humans in the U.S. but… as a nurse, when I have palliative orders, they are to give narcotics and benzos every 5 minutes as needed. You bet your ass they’re given every 5 minutes. I have killed people. They were about to die, and I hope that I took their pain away in the process, but the drugs I have given take that pain away and contribute to their death at the same time.

That being said, I have never done this without an order from a physician or without family consent. Throwaway anyway just in case someone decides to pick a bone.

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