This Is When I Finally Knew You Were Gone For Good

You’d think that once I saw you with another girl that it’d do the trick? That I’d automatically fall out of love with you and move on with my life because I knew I deserved better— nope! It didn’t happen like that, not even a little bit.

It didn’t even happen when I saw you making changes for her, changes you’d never make for me. You told me you stopped smoking, you smiled and said you just stopped cold turkey, it wasn’t till later that I found out that you stopped for her.

You know what’s the sad part about that? I asked you to stop because I had breathing problems and couldn’t tolerate breathing it in but still you smoked in front of me because you told me that it was hard for you to just quit.

You invited her on trips with your friends when you never invited me.

You supported her in activities she was a part of but never went with me to any of mine.

You included her into your life more than you ever included me.

But still hope prevailed.

The bible says love is patient, love is kind, but it doesn’t really tell you when’s the right time to let go of the love you’re holding on to.

Do you let go in a matter of days or will it take months? How about letting go the moment you fall to the floor because you could literally feel your heart breaking and you can’t breathe? What if you just don’t know how no matter how hard you try, it’s simple to tell someone to move on and let go, it’s a generic answer to give, but it’s different story when you’re the one that has to do it.

It’s a constant battle sometimes, your heart says to hold on but your head is telling you it’s not worth it, that you deserve better — which do you choose?

I always say that true love could stand the test of time and that nothing could hinder it from overcoming everything and anything but there does come a time where you have to determine if it’s worth it all, sometimes you have to hold on for the both of you or sometimes you have to let go and protect yourself.

I knew it was time to let go the moment I saw you two at the chapel praying together.

That’s the moment I knew it was time. That’s the moment I knew you weren’t mine. That’s the moment I knew I had lost you forever.

It was such a simple thing, I was praying for you but you were praying for her.