Dear Mr. Right Now, I Like Where We Are

You’re different, in the best way possible.

I’m used to worrying about each corresponding step in a relationship and making sure it’s progressing according to my timeline. But I don’t feel that way with you. I don’t need to talk to you all the time or know what you’re doing every second of the day. Maybe it comes with age that you stop trying to control everything around you and just let things be. Or maybe it’s you.

I’m having fun getting to know you. I don’t need to be so serious about the future. I mean I’m only 23-you don’t need to be my forever person. But I’m happy you’re my person right now.

You have an innate ability to rationalize the jumbled mess my mind concocts and break it down to simple things. When I tell you all the things I want to do with my life, you tell me the most obvious thing that I seem to miss-just do those things. Make time for the passions you have in life, because it will reap rewards later on.

You’re passionate, driven, and so very smart. I love that. You have such big dreams and goals and I see you working hard to achieve them, which in turn motivates me to work just as hard to achieve mine. I love to have my hand in so many different things that it makes it hard to really focus and achieve substantial results in any one thing. But watching dedication pay off shows that maybe focusing isn’t such a bad thing, and commitment isn’t as scary as I once thought.

You teach me so many things without even realizing it. I see the life you lead and it inspires me to want to better my own. I see just how much hard work can pay off. Additionally, how being closed off and hiding my emotions isn’t doing me any favors. I’m working on that one.

But most of all, I like the sense of ease I feel with you. Like I can just be myself without having to filter everything.

I think I forgot how to do that after an endless string of bad dates. I like that you make me laugh. I especially like when I make you laugh and the way your face breaks out of it’s normal serious expression. The way you’re affectionate, even when it’s out of my comfort zone. Or the way you can read me better than so many before, right from the first day I met you.

No one can predict the future or how things will play out, but I’m happy right now. And isn’t that the most important thing?

After all, the small moments of happiness and the people that create that are what life is really about. Those connections. Whether fleeting or lasting, connections make life sweet. You’ve made my life a little sweeter since you came into it.