There are few people that have a harder time finding – and staying with – their soulmates than awakened, powerful women.
You’d think it would be the opposite. That becoming more grounded and self-aware and kind-hearted and open-minded would make you a magnet for the perfect partner. But that so rarely happens. When you decide to begin your healing process, what you attract are people that will help you grow, not settle. People who need to be healed, not loved.
When you begin your process of awakening, your light becomes a beacon for men who are power hungry. It is very common to find yourself in relationships with men who are far behind you on their own paths, and they will be aware of this. These types of men want to be validated by you.
Awakened women attract highly egotistical men because they have a hunger for power. And there is no power like a woman who truly knows what she’s capable of.
Egotistical men are charmers. They’re the ones that laugh at your breathing practices and evening sage routines, but are nonetheless absolutely transfixed by you. They’re greedy enough to awaken your love, but have no intention of actually loving you.
These are the types of men who are meant to truly test you, and help you recognize the blocks that have been holding you back. But if you aren’t aware enough to realize this is happening, you can get pulled too far into their lust to see clearly.
This is the point at which you start to doubt yourself. You start dulling your edge, and questioning everything about yourself. All of these old insecurities come boiling up to the surface. They make you feel as though you will never be able to find someone else. They make you feel as though your life would end if you didn’t have them around.
When you are with someone who absorbing your light you will feel it ripple into every part of your life.
You will be overcome with anxiety, unable to focus on anything but how absolutely worthless you feel of this person’s love. You will be searching all over for a sliver of hope, a sign from anywhere that proves that the two of you could be together. You never stop to ask yourself why you would want to be with someone who takes so much, and gives so little.
That love you’re so absolutely terrified to live without? Chances are, you don’t have it in the first place. That’s what an egotistical partner does: they keep you close to them while they maintain their distance from you.
But this is not the end of your story. This is just a chapter in the exposition. For you to understand the full capacity of your inner power, you will first have to feel what it’s like to have it taken away. For you to fully commit to what you want to create in your life, you will first have to know what it’s like to commit to something that won’t give you anything in return.
And for you to be able to recognize when your soulmate arrives, you will first have to know what untrue love feels like. The deeper you are acquainted with what the wrong person is like, the faster you will be able to recognize the right person when they come.
Because healing, and awakening, is not the peaceful journey you think it will be. Strong women attract just as many terrible partners as women who haven’t fully stepped into themselves do. It’s not a matter of who we come across in our lives, it’s a matter of who we know ourselves well enough to choose.