You are standing in front of a boy who inspires within you a love you never thought you would feel before. You’re standing in front of a boy who makes it look so easy — the dismantling, the removal of the grit and the dust from your tired heart, the bubbling of a feeling, the swell of something you told yourself you would never allow inside your bones again.
You are standing in front of a boy who strips you of your advances, who takes the bricks out of your wall one by one, who disassembles years of strength and reveals to the world the softness of your foundation — your spine, your searching fingertips, your hope.
You are standing in front of a boy who wants to give you the world, and you are afraid because for the first time in years you feel the frost from within your faith start to thaw. You see the sun, and for the first time in years, you can feel it, warm on your skin, hot on the back of your neck. For the first time in years, you are unarmed.
You are standing in front of a boy, and you must stay. You must.
Because in front of you stands a boy who has told you that he lives for you, that he will never leave, and you have to believe him. You have to trust. Standing in front of you is a boy who will help you battle your demons, who will hold your hand while you fight the war against your mind. Standing in front of you is a boy who will watch you as you open your chest and empty out the monsters and the soot and the names of memories you still haven’t faced. He will see your baggage, your history, piled in front of him, the great purging of your very soul, and he will love you anyways. He will love you anyways.
Remember, you are not a vessel of sadness; you are not a lost cause. Do not run away this time. Do not flee. You are standing in front of a boy who sees every phantom within you, and he has chosen to stay, to fight. You are standing in front of a boy who knows with reckless abandon that you deserve more than what the past was able to give to you, that life has not always protected the softness of your heart, and he wants to defend you. He wants to show you what happiness is meant to feel like.
You are standing in front of a boy who wants to love you, and you must stay. You must.