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Becca Martin

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I’m a forever kind of person. I believe in big love, of growing old with your friends and your soulmate. I believe in coffee dates with my girl friends when we’re old and wrinkly. I believe in rocking on the front porch swing with my husband when the sun comes out to play in the middle of the day.

There comes a moment in every athlete’s career where the clock strikes 0:00 for the final time and in that moment part of you is changed forever.

Capricorn: People adore you because you’re always looking at what’s ahead. You don’t dwell on the negatives or the past. You just keep moving forward and that’s something a lot of people struggle with.

You’re allowed to be young and dumb, it teaches you the best lessons, but growing up is different and it’s hard. It’s a lot more structured and just really lonely. I’m trying to get used to being alone, but sometimes the silence grows so loud I can’t take it.

I thought we were going to make it, all this time I felt so sure of it. And then you told me you didn’t feel that way, that you didn’t know if there was room for me and my heart shattered.

Then it hit me as I took my last sip of coffee and put the mug down that’s completely faded and barely readable that I do have a hard time letting things go. Not only people, but also things.

What we had was toxic, you were toxic, but I didn’t try to stop it. Not really, anyway because I would have rather been with you – lost and happy, confused yet complete than live without you.

It hurts to know that they’re right there, that they’re still the same person you shared so many memories with but can no longer reach out to. It hurts to know that you really didn’t matter because they could just drop you so easily.

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