I know what you’re doing; you’re trying to protect your heart by keeping people out. You think you’re doing yourself a favor by shutting your heart out to love because that way you can’t get hurt, you can’t allow your fragile heart to be shattered again.
But it’s time to start taking down your walls little by little.
You don’t have to do it all at once; I know it’s not that easy. I’m struggling with it myself.
I keep the walls high and they progressively get higher without my permission or knowledge, but over the years they’ve managed to shut out heart after heart and push away interest after interest.
They make me skeptical and guarded without my consent because they’ve become my comfort and my identity.
They’ve become what I rely on to not mistreat my heart. It makes me feel like I’m protecting myself and shielding myself from negative emotions, but the only person I’m really hurting is myself.
I know I’m a lot further to finding love than the woman he continues to put herself out there, through the pain and rejection she might face. She is brave.
Those women get a lot of negative things said about them though for being ‘needy’ or ‘not being able to be alone.’ But the people making these comments are the ones who have guarded hearts, the ones who couldn’t put themselves out there in fear of getting hurt.
It’s time to change that mindset.
So here’s to us, to not being the one’s afraid of love, to starting to slowly take down the walls we’ve built internally.
Acknowledge your walls and think back to the person you were before you were hurt, before you felt broken and you loved with your whole heart. You did not show fear and you didn’t hold back, that’s what I strive for again.
I’m not saying it will be easy, I’m not saying it will happen over night because it won’t but I am my own worst enemy right now in regards to love. I am holding myself back, just like you might be holding yourself back.
It’s time to look inward, into ourselves and start fighting off the demons that we’ve been allowing to live within us.
It’s time to peel away the layers once and for all, it’s time to accept the pain that we will face because shutting off our hearts is not getting us any closer to finding love.
Acknowledge what you’re doing and start small by practicing self-love, practice allowing your emotions to show and being vulnerable. Start opening your heart and let the skepticism you have in your mind be quieted by what you’re feeling in the moment. Laugh without hesitation and say ‘yes’ if it’s what you want, don’t think of everything that could go wrong. Just allow life to take it’s course and if it’s meant to be it will be.
It’s time to start taking down the walls you’ve built so high in your life and just start living without fear.
You are beautiful and you are strong, you don’t deserve to hide away from the world because your heart has been mishandled. You should let your soul shine like it’s been meant to all along.