Today, right at this very moment, I have decided that I am done with unrequited love. I’ve had enough of it. I am done chasing, I am done vying for someone’s attention, I won’t beg for time and I will never let someone trample on what’s left of my barely-glued-back-together heart.
It took Adolf Hitler twenty months to go from chancellor to dictator, and years for the Nazi regime to build enough power to create one of the most devastating time periods in history. People are scared the wrong man has been given the power, and that his power has been built on a campaign that made people fear someone who had a different skin color than them, or hate someone who had a different belief.
I am learning to focus on me. I am learning that having feelings is nothing to be afraid of or ashamed of. I am learning to trust again. I am learning to be kind to myself. I am learning to be emotionally vulnerable.
You now blame me for the reasons you were unhappy, that I did not do a good job of making life easier on you or making you happier; but I was not the reason for your unhappiness – that came first.
We need to take time alone. We need it as much as we need to eat, drink, or sleep. It allows all of your layers to unfold and connect to your true and deep self. Fifteen minutes a day, sit with yourself. Through daily practice you will hear the chatter in your head start to get quieter and your inner voice and intuition get louder.
I was 18 when I thought I was in love.
As much as I hate this disease, and who you are when you’re high, and the amount of pain you’ve caused our family – is nothing in comparison to the pain we would feel if we lost you.
I would be a fool to say I wasn’t in love you. With you, I felt like love showed me a face. It was passionate, it was crazy. It felt real, it was painful.
I really want to stop loving you because I know you don’t love me.
It’s easy to stay when life is at a standstill. It’s another to insist on staying, even if circumstances are trying to tear us apart.