It is not easy being a “sensitive guy.” Boys are taught early on to be tough. Be the protector. Stand your ground and don’t let anything affect you. Anything other than that is seen as weak or incapable.
The Spiritual Pillar: This one is complex because it is so innately personal to the person evaluating it.
You have been warned by multiple people about them.
You are not defined by expectations, especially your own. You deserve a break and the chance to walk your own journey at your own pace. And there is nothing wrong with that.
There is nothing wrong in finding entertainment or a thing that brings pleasure to our lives; that is a noble pursuit. The question to be asked is what is the cost of this entertainment?
Life is a story. Chapter by chapter, season by season it is being written. Year after year we develop as a protagonist.
I needed something to tell me I was worthy, that I was important. It was a drug. An itch that needed to be scratched. And little by little, I did whatever was necessary to scratch it.
That is the goal, right? To find happiness, to find purpose? Don’t shy away from it when you do.
I write because people need to know they are not alone. I write to know I am not alone.
It is ok to just be for a while without a conclusion in sight. Rest in knowing that the beautiful thing about seasons is that they always change; they are never infinite, they come and go. What is today may not be tomorrow. You are on a journey.