You’re Going To Break My Heart

why so serious

Damn that gave a fresh sting

I thought it. You wrote it. As always. 

Loved the last two paragraphs :)

Perfection >> “It’s amazing how many Sundays you can endure with a limp rag doll. The more you can get rejected, the more you want to prove yourself.” 

“You know the dynamics of a relationship from the beginning.”

this. is. truth.

“The worst is an unattended heart.”— truth. 

I always go after a challenge. It’s kinda pathetic. Why is it that I try so hard with my heart and feelings and mind for someone who isn’t making the effort, and yet I run away from the ones that are being perfect and making the effort and treating me the way I should be? fucked. up. 

I just discovered Thought Catalog yesterday. My favorite article so far was “upon Realizing you Don’t love your Ex” and after that, I bookmarked this damn page. 

I feel this.

oh so perfectly captured

You’re inside my head, it’s creepy, but so unbelievably contorting knowing I’m not alone in this

we might be brain twins.

Oh neat how timely here’s a prime example: Guy that I poured my heart out to with feelings for him, after him telling me he has feelings for me and we hook up, etc… he’s now dating someone else thus knows I clearly still have feelings and yet has the audacity to say “sorry it’s date night” to me in response to me asking if he’s gonna come by tonight to hang out. FUCK. YOU. 

I liked it. I feel like I could have written this myself. 

Yeah.
You aren’t even able to voice these feelings in a relationship -  you are completely alone in knowing it and it hurts so, so, so bad.

I love love love the pain and torture and exhilaration of love, but the sting of a broken (or smashed) heart is starting to lose its appeal.

and the question i’m left with is, what can we do to avoid this? what can we do to make sure he won’t wake up tomorrow morning and feel differently? is there anything? what keeps relationships together? is it just a crapshoot?

i hate this i hate this i hate this lack of control.

THIS.
What can you say? “Hey, so I’ve noticed lately you’ve been falling out of love with me. Can we do something about that?”

It’s so sad.

Being the one who loves less is no picnic either.  At least in the underloved scenario you have the righteousness of feeling.

This is why you’re my favorite.

THIS ARTICLE SPEAKS TO ME ON SO MANY LEVELS. PREACH! PREAAAACH!

Yeah, it’s hard to get your heart broken but it’s really hard to do the breaking.

Ryan needs to smoke more pot, or something. 

You are amazing.

thank you for this. going through some shit and nice to know im not alone.

you should read “Don’t date a girl who reads”. It’s the article that introduced me to the site. Not my favorite anymore since it’s slightly immature but still brilliant all the same

“ I’m old enough to know better by now but too young to change it.” Perfect line. Is it that terrible to love somebody more than they love you. I wonder how they feel about loving less…

haha the image for this article is a broken heart with the words email me. Perfect.

Wow.  If the guy who broke my heart reads Thought Catalog as often as he said he does…

then don’t date

just make it easy on everyone and end it

because you hate yourself, clearly. get some self esteem and then find someone good.

Yeah, this seems harsh but is absolutely true. As corny as it sounds, but you have to love yourself before you can love anyone else…

Woosh, this felt so good to read. Right? The first time they lie there? You want to change everything at once, then you pull away and they don’t chase.

I know what it’s like. Sorry, Ryan. 

“I started to sense some resistance on your end though. Your body just
hung there like a limp rag doll and that’s when I realized that you were
rejecting me. I was being rejected on a day where everything was
supposed to feel close and that’s when I understood that this
relationship was living on borrowed time. That’s when I knew you were
not going to break my heart but that you were actually breaking my
heart.”

This. At the end of July I broke up with my boyfriend of 5 years. Or, we broke up. I knew his head and heart were no longer in it, though my entire soul still was. Is. I remember this moment for us. I remember the moment when I knew he was not simply going to end up breaking my heart, but was starting to actively break it, little by little. That was nearly 5 months before we ended. Those 5 months were torture. I never knew exactly where his head was. Some days he was there, many he was not. I wanted to believe I could fix everything if I was “the perfect girlfriend.” I turned a blind eye to so many things, forgave things I should not have forgiven, and sacrificed a lot of myself in hopes that he’d look at me one day and think, “Hm, she’s pretty awesome and I’m happy where I’m at.”

It never happened. And now it’s been almost 3 months. This person who I knew inside and out, who I spent 5 years of my life with, who in every sense of the word became my family…this person is now a stranger. And it kills me.

Sometimes you are so spot on. Damn.

oh thank you for your useful input you big IDIOT how about we just never go out with people or never have sex or never enjoy life F U U SUK

God damn that’s good.

You’ve written practically everything that just happened to me in the past 2 weeks. I just have gone through it enough times to have it hurt me more than it should’ve been…

“The worst is an unattended heart. It’s not full, it’s not empty; it’s just there. That kind of make you feel like you’re dead inside and everything is just stagnant. The worst.”
Wish I wrote this.

You ignored the signs because you thought your love could make them love you someday. You thought that you could change them. 

Ohh yes I loved that article too! Saw that on tumblr, didn’t really know it was originally from this site. awesome. 

well. i read this article in the middle of a failing relationship, and it resonated with me, and i still thought i could fight it. and it ended. just like this. ryan mcconnell, i don’t know why i don’t trust you enough yet to just make my decisions for me. i would be a lot better off.

yep, once again ryan knows my life.

Going through this right now. Keep going to bed at night wishing I’ll wake up one day and she’ll say, “I’ve been crazy all along! I’m head over heels!” But I know she won’t. I’m ignoring the signs I know I shouldn’t be. I’m forgiving the things that don’t deserve forgiveness. It’s silly, it’s dumb, it’s hard on the both of us. But neither of us will end it, not yet anyway. There’s something so comforting in the poison.

This struck me like a lightning bolt. We’re not dumb, we just refuse to get our brains on top of our heads. And feel proud though, coz people like us have a great threshold of pain. The sun will shine again, hahaha #dumbanddumber